I have no idea what I’m doing and that’s ok!
Becoming a parent is a huge change for anyone, our lives change drastically either from the moment of conception or the time of birth noted by the midwife. I know full well that I can prepare myself to the maximum for baby’s arrival but once she is here it is pretty much just a day-by-day learning process.
Excited, nervous and slightly ignorant are just a few of the many emotions I’m feeling as I wait for D-day.
Here we go – 5 things that I worry about caring for a newborn:
1. Temperature control: Of course the appropriate measures I have taken are purchasing bath, room and rectal thermometers to guide how cold and hot my baby is/should be. I am awful at judging temperature and my house changes temperature drastically all the time which doesn’t help.
2. Sleeping: I have been told to wave goodbye to good rest for a while, especially when my newborn needs to be fed every two hours and whatnot. SIDS (sudden infant death syndrome) frightens me to the point where I cry just thinking about it lightly, I have asked questions and read a whole load of books just so I know the safety and comfortable precautions of putting a baby to sleep like the back of my hand. I suppose I’m worried about my body not getting enough rest and as a result may lead to clumsy and unforgivable outcomes.
3. Hygiene: I scrub, clean and sanitize my house nearly everyday but the thought of germs still horrify me. I catch bugs and colds way to easily, I don’t want this to happen to Arwen. Reading articles and generally chatting with my midwife has made me aware to risks when I am washing or not washing baby, and regular change in bedding, nappies and clothing are mandatory (as well as a nutritious, consistent diet).
4. Irritating products: I know this may sound absurd, especially because I am having child, but I just hate purchasing or being given products with constant noise or flashing lights – basically irritating things which trigger my fury. Hopefully I will get used to things things but at the moment they really wind me up, I can’t avoid things which will improve Arwen’s stimulation and growth.
5. Fast forward: We all grow, faster than we think and it’s sad that babies cannot stay newborn forever. The future is far but it does come around at a pace, what happens if I am too wrapped up in worries to just love Arwen? I’m scared of time shooting by making me miss all the great things about having a first child, because you only get one chance.
– Thank god for Marco, he is a blessing as he keeps me growing stronger and stronger everyday. Without Marco, I can’t imagine my life being as perfect as it is now x