I am so sick of feeling insecure.
Always worrying about money.
Always worrying about the growing depression of getting just another dead end job.
Anxiety fills my mentality, the air escapes my lungs and my body becomes paralyzed.
I don’t want to keep looking at my future and see a constant darkness because it is threatened by a financial struggle.
I am desperate to start supporting Marco like he has for me this past year, but I don’t want to be separated from him or my daughter by a job which in itself is a struggle.
‘Instead of having a baby you should have stayed at school’
‘Maybe you should have stayed working and gaining money first’
‘Don’t have a baby if you’re not ready then’
Arwen shouldn’t be stopping me from adding more to my life and certainly should not be used by other people as an excuse to slow me down in any way.
I constantly fear for my life, my future family. It saddens me how thoughts of regret have crossed my mind, but still I wouldn’t change what has happened to me for anything.
Please help me, I am in desperate need of finding a job in journalism. Similar to this hobby. I want to write, I want to be a paid blogger, I believe a lot of people (especially women) relate to what I post.
Don’t let another unemployed mother fall into darkness, make her simple dreams come true. Are they any journalists out there who can help me in this field?
I want to learn
I want to grow
I want to provide.
I urge you to share this around, please spread my struggles and hopefully my prayers are answered.